Everything seems to be coming at me all at once.
My tears are running out...
I wish that i can just shut my eyes,ears and my heart away from the world..
Then i would not see,hear or feel anything...
Maybe in the first place i shouldn't have agreed.
Then i'll realized earlier.
Then i'll realize its not going to happen
Maybe i should not have agreed so fast..
Then i'll know that his love would not last.
Not even for a month i can guarantee.
Pathetic compared to the 1 year.
Now maybe its to late to find out.
But I'm glad that i realized it.
Better late then never..
I hate myself for being so stupid..
I hope i can break away this time...
I want to sleep at night,
To stop crying.
To stop being depressed..
To stop thinking at all...
I really don't want to care anymore
Whatever he wants, is up to him..
I never knew what he is thinking
Never knew what he is doing..
I don't wish to be part of anything now..
I want to feel nothing..
Love less, expect less, you'll hurt less..